Some Days

and there is some days
i feel all alone
and forget what we
are working towards

and there is some days
when i feel sick
cause you aren't around
and the phone just
can't comfort this

and there is some days
when i am tired of
being the "man of the house"
tired of fixing and hanging on

some days, i feel like giving up
like our dreams won't happen
and we aren't on the same page
i just don't know how to fix it

and there are some days
that it hurts to miss you
and some days i'm reminded
of the good it will bring

there are some days
i'd love a little comfort
love a little less fear
love a little happiness
i'd love a little you

It's Succeeding

My body is trying to kill me.



ARGHHHHHH

Romance Recap

Everytime Danny comes home, after being away 4 or 5 weeks I feel like I have been put in a blender and pureed on high.

Between visiting, partying, renovating, insulating, plumbing, cleaning, there is very little "us" time.
I did however manage to surprise him with a very nice hotel surprise on his last night in town. I strung him along like a little puppy and he took the bait. Even when he was walking into the hotel room, he still thought I was attending a course for work and he needed to help me carry some stuff out to the car. His face was worth the price of the hotel.Planning a surprise is remarkably stressful however, and I barely made it through the 5 days without spilling the beans.

It all worked out and was really fun, especially the jacuzzi tub that was directly facing the t.v (with Food TV on it of course.) I am such a food geek.

Have not heard from you in weeks and I can guess why.

"course you're the kind of guy who doesn't lie
he just doctors everything
who chooses some unassuming finger
and quietly moves his wedding ring
who rewrites his autobiography for any pretty girl who will sing
but you can't fool the queen baby
'cause i married the king"

Name Game

should i change the name of this blog?

GO GUSHUE !!!!!

Email from Erik concerning a certain friend of ours "outing himself"

"(Certain Friend)DID come out of the closet!! I can't believe you
have not heard! It's official now!

We are so happy for him. I wish I could date him, I'd
give him a tender man hug.......

I'd "Brokeback" his "Mountain" anyday!!!"



that is some serious funny shit.

Black Wednesday....

It's a sad day baby, but I still love you

and I just can't hide it....

Ever have one of those days, when you felt excited but you weren't sure why? Today is definitely one of them. Maybe it's because Danny is coming home in a week, or because the Canadian Men's Curling team made it to the playoffs in Torino, or cause I am getting work done at home renovating my living room, or because I feel motivated this week. I am not sure, but I like it.

dammit

Tickets available for Death Cab = couple thousand
Chances of Mindy getting tickets = 1 million to 1


*&^*&%(*&^)*(^)(*^)%^)*&%(*
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Serophene

empty like never before
held in a pause
waiting to harbor
and then expel
a new begining
a new chance
a new hope
in a mass of cells and breath

seeing them
stirs up dust
and creates a bitter me
for I am empty
and they are not

Best part of my day

Driving down Highway 501 this morning at dawn with the snow lightly falling. Listening to the old ipod when "Fast Train" by Neko Case comes on, and just as I round the corner past a ridge of trees, and just as I hear Neko sing "Fast train, where do your passengers wait?" a train appears out of the ridge of snow-capped trees.
So Beautiful.... it gave me goosebumps.

My advice to the world today…

1. See “The Constant Gardener”. It’s been so long since I have seen such an inspiring movie. Rent It, Buy it, or borrow it. Whatever, but do see it.

2. Leave James Frey alone. I am 3/4 of the way through “A Million Little Pieces” and I haven't been able to put it down, truth or semi-truth. I paid $11.25 for it at Costco. I am, by no means, deceived, disappointed. How many times have you ever embellished a story you told your buddies. We should be thankful this guy isn’t as fucked up as he says. I’m relieved, and so Oprah and everyone else should calm the fuck down. People with glass houses should not throw stones.

3. Be happy and love each other.
4. Make delicious food.
5. Smile.
6. Make a new friend. I have made 4 in the last 3 weeks. And I love them….. you know who you are!!!

Happy 1000 Blog!

1000 hits, and I didn't even post any internet boobie shots!

I know they are mostly hits from my cousins and a few friends but who cares!
I've inspired a whole new crew of bloggers.... I love my cousins!

ps. Happy Birthday Danny..... I love you you big freaking redneck! I am so glad we are together for your big ol birthday!

Reasons to be happy today

1. I have conquered my fear of Winter driving.


2. Danny is flying home today.

3. My quad is getting fixed and we are going riding soon.

4. The sun is shining and it's -1 today in Winnipeg.

Oh happy day!

Lord it's hard to be a blowout..........

What do you get when you mix.....

1 saturday night
1 sassy outfit
10 perogies
2 polkas
1 heel toe
18 year old boys
1 gallon of whiskey
and a 4:45 am bedtime ?

a fricken long ride home and hangover Monday......

Coudn't have said it better myself......

"And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy"

Party for Danny

Party at Anola Bar January 26th.

Dan will be at home and eager for beer and boobs on the 26th.
He'd love to see the gang.

Hope to see you guys there.

I'll be there with bells on, of course. This time I planned ahead, I booked friday off so there will be no sleeping in and puking all day at work.

I rule.

Kids

Debauchery
although innocent
brings up old thoughts
and swirls emotions
till I am twisted
beyond my own
recognition


4 people
brought together
and then pulled
apart like cotton
candy
a sticky sweet reminder
of what used to be
but what it too far gone

Hostel This! .....

You know what sucks?

When you go to a scary movie, eagerly anticipating, jumping and squealing with fright girls grabbing their date by the arm scary goodness and you get to the movie and it's basically soft core porn and tons of corn-syrup-fake-blood-Tarantino gore.

I am so disappointed.