+ Positive

It's amazing how
selfish you can be
when you want something
so badly
and what an awful person
you can be
when you don't get
what you want.

nothing like looking at your own history, in the faces of your friends

Last night I talked on the phone with Krista for almost 2 hours. We don't talk as often as most best friends do, but when we talk we "TALK". I've been feeling very "friend-less" lately and she came through huge for me (again). Sometimes I feel very taken for granted by some of my friends like "oh good ol'Mindy treat her like crap, she keeps coming back". Krista takes that feeling away.

She's all moved in to her new place in the RH so we are going to hang out more, and by "hang out" I mean do nothing. Watch movies, spa nights, drink coffee and chill out. I really miss doing that.

I wish some other people could be the same kind of friend to me like she is.

Listening & relating

"little flashing zero
on my answering machine
rats scratching at my pain,
brain shuffling its feet
guess i have my father's heart
and it may or may not keep on trying
can't really tell you what it is
keeps me this side of that dark line"

Tired of Tired

Too busy
for everything
too busy to see
those who bring joy
who comfort
who bring smiles

Too busy to go outside
to lay in the grass
it's all about impressing
and keeping up
with the Joneses

Too busy to have fun
to enjoy it all
I'm busy being busy
but I don't know what for
It's all about rushing
home to finish nothing

I wonder what age
will bring completeness
Will I ever feel full
Will I learn to want less
and not take for granted
all these things

I am looking for the simple life
but wonder how long it will take
to arrive

Another I wish I wrote.........

Happy Belated Cardboard Anniversary Baby, I love you !

"why don't you talk about it
I know there's something on your mind
will you go on and get a cigarette,
I�ll be waiting outside
the last few years have been much harder
than we ever thought they'd be
I know you hate it when I say I'm sorry
but I'm sorry

there was never a point in our love
that I didn't love you
not a point in our love
I always did, I always will, I always do love you still
I always would, how could I not hide, just look at us baby
we're kind of perfect

well sometimes I get all wrapped up
cause I don't know who to be
but you know when to be my security blanket, and when to uncover me
so let's just sit out on the back porch
and unravel everything
someday these will be our old days, let's make them worth our memory

there was never a point in our love
that I didn't love you
not a point in our love
I always did, I always will, I always do love you still
I always would, how could I not hide, just look at us baby
we're kind of perfect

never planned on loving somebody so much
but I've always had pretty good luck baby

I always did, I always will, I always do love you still
I always would, how could I not hide, just look at us baby
we're kind of perfect

we're kind of perfect
we're kind of perfect, baby
we're kind of perfect, baby
we're kind of perfect, baby"

Look out Ross, Manitoba !

Mindy is bachlorette-ing it up this weekend whilst Danny-Boy is going to a buddy's cabin with all his crazy-assed friends.


This weekend shall consist of $30 worth of Blockbuster rentals and 5lbs of chocolate.
and some Kraft Dinner because there's calcium in that right?


Wish me luck !

oh and wish my ovaries luck too, they need it.

Well I made it, I'm 27.

The party was awesome, like way too awesome. I kind of felt like crying through most of it cause it was just way more than I expected. The people, the gifts, the food, the sappy cards (thanks Dad). Was more than plenty, it was unbelieveable. It was pretty nuts, but a good kind of nuts. Jasmine brought over Spencer and he made my whole night. He's so cute, as if he wouldn't have totally made your birthday?

Second Helping of Panty Soup

It might just be the redneck in me, but this is some of the best shit ever.



I just bought Danny this cd as an anniversary gift for putting up with my bullshit over the last 2 years. I don't think I can wait to give it to him until Monday.